The Mystery
Strange things are afoot. I was contacted by someone this week who has never practiced Kundalini Yoga and isn't even particularly spiritual. But she had an experience that she needed to share with me, because it involved my music. She was in a dark place emotionally and was struggling with sleep so she went to turn on her tablet and without any commands from her, a You Tube video of my song Aisa Naam opened up spontaneously. She didn't understand what it was, but she began to listen and immediately fell into a profound sleep and awoke--14 hours later!--rested, calm and at ease.
If we think this technology doesn't have the power to touch and to heal, we are miscalculating its impact, which is universal. And if we think we're "in charge" of how its found--through marketing, or facebook, or traveling and touring--we're also profoundly mistaken. Karta Purkh, the Hand of the Doer, is working through all the many mediums available to her; and the sound current is coming to all those who call out in search of The Name.
I've never believed in a savior; but I relate to the feeling of needing one. I relate to the hopelessness, the sense of being lost; but I've also had the experience and the ecstasy of being found. And even though I still don't relate to being saved, I do relate to a thing known as grace because I've experienced it. Grace that is that moment of awakening--the tejas--that allows us to see in a new way, ourselves or others. That moment of kindness from a stranger. That silence just before a sound that breaks your heart open. That look that makes you understand that you've never really known what love was before this moment, right here, right now. These are moments of grace; and we create them with every breath, with every act of kindness, and with every act of creation.
We may never meet all the people that our art touches or has touched. We may never being able to calculate the impact our lives have had on others. But just this one story, this one life, this one heart is enough.
Heaven and Earth
It's tough living with a saint. Not because they aren't beautiful and inspiring--they are, of course, they're saints after all! But because simply their presence calls you to become more, to stretch, to drop old patterns, to expand. But if we drop all the old patterns, all the boundaries, all the safe familiar things that make us who we are, then who do we become? There's a line from the Big Book that describes this very identity crisis: "I'll just be the hole in the donut." And yes, perhaps when we drop all the ego identifiers, we become zero. We become shuniya; we do in fact become the "hole in the donut."
Yet even as I write this, I also feel deeply in my bones a call from within: but you are human, too! And this human experience is in large part why we're here in the first place. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about growth. But every once in a while, it's also important to sit back with your popcorn and enjoy the show. Or stand in front of the mirror and just appreciate what you see. Or allow yourself to be late for work because you stayed in bed late making love. These, too, are part of the divine.
When we separate the "saintly" from the "worldly" we create a false division in our own psyches. If I were asked to identify the "devil" in anything, I would suggest it is this false divide. The moment we place creation outside the boundary of heaven, we have reduced both heaven and earth. "God is either everything or God is nothing." "If you can't see God in all you can't see God at all." These aphorisms speak to the essential union of all things.
The moment we separate them is the moment we begin to generate what's been traditionally known as hell--a hell on earth. Because the moment I put saintly outside of myself is the moment I limit my own divine experience as a human being. We are human and we are divine. There's no separating the two sides of that particular coin.
Allow yourself to relish this worldly life; for saints are made more resilient through pleasure. And continue to stretch your boundaries, for humans are made more compassionate through service. And in this way, we can all enjoy this heaven that is earth.