attachment versus loveSo my meditation on attachment continues. I woke up this morning at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep. After a conversation with a friend last night, I recognized once again the seeds of attachment--hope. Challenged to hold a positive projection, I admitted that it was too painful for me; it brings up so many old habit patterns. I simply need to wish for happiness--for him and for me--nothing more, nothing less. Beyond that, it's in the guru's hands.
Yet, in my aspiration to benefit others and in my hopes of planting positive seeds and burning my negative ones, I awoke this morning and found myself doing the prayer for a godly man--Sopurkhs. After my eleven repetitions, the seed of attachment that had once again awakened in my heart dissolved and I was able to simply wish for his happiness and rise up for my sadhana knowing that this present moment was all I needed. And that whatever hope for a future might find it's way into my consciousness, I can simply use prayer and surrender to give it back to the guru. For this moment, and this one, and this one, are all we have--and happiness is generated now--not in the future or in the past.
May we all have the strength
to stay in the present moment
May we all recognize the seeds
of attachment and release them
to the wind so that we no longer
May we water the seeds of
contentment and love and friendship
May we wish only for happiness
and recognize everything else
as only a dream