Greetings from the Land of Enchantment

the blues

This morning is dark. The wind is blowing; it's cold and grey out. My heart is heavy with the weight of sadness and loss. It's caught me by surprise because for the better part of the week I've been able to clear it all out during sadhana and have a good day; but today is another story.

On Grey's Anatomy last night, as I heard Meredith give her speech about "it's better to be with someone, even if it's painful, even if it's the hardest thing you've ever had to do, it's better to be with than without," I felt like she was telling my story. But of course she's not--she's not even telling her own. She's just a character on TV. But today I find myself listening to "a river" by Joni Mitchell and wishing I could turn back the clock and do things differently; but God is the doer and I'm learning that destiny has very little to do with what I think I want.

Nevertheless, sometimes a girl just has to sing the blues. . . .

River by Joni Mitchell

It's coming on christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

But it dont snow here
It stays pretty green
Im going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene

I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

I made my baby cry
He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees

Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and I'm sad
Now I've gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had

Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I made my baby say goodbye
It's coming on christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

posted by Sat Purkh Kaur Khalsa @ 11:54 AM