Weddings and thingsI'm getting married. Never truly believed I'd be saying those words, especially at this point in my life. But there they are. And there he is, Abhai Raj Singh Ji, aka Pete Luellen, a lovely man who loves banjos (and me!).
He asked me early in the morning on December 31st, on a small hill out in the arroyos here in New Mexico. I was short of breath and cold as he began making his way down the path again until he turned to me and asked, Will you marry me? And I said, Yes. What a way to start the new year!
Thir Gar Baiso--the guru has arranged all my affairs--and I have to keep that in mind as we begin planning the wedding. Picking the wedding date has been the first of what I can only assume will be a plethora of decisions that we will have to change and adapt to. We had the "perfect" date and then his family couldn't come. We had a second "perfect" date, and my family couldn't come. So now we just have a date--and hopefully it will be perfect enough, just because our families can be here.
I woke up this morning from the first of what I can only pray will be very few wedding anxiety dreams--something about the dress--and so, the game has begun! The question is, Do I have the nervous system for it? I think I'm going to have to up the ante on my sadhana to make it through the whole thing--and still have fun! And that's the most important thing--the fun!
My niece is getting married this spring and she wanted a small, intimate family wedding, simply because she had witnessed so many big affairs in which the bride was an absolute basket! Last night I too was lobbying for an elopement, but in the end, we're hoping the big affair will be worth it.
At my age it's a bit embarrassing to admit that I still want the big party and the big dress; but I do. Having never married before, and having it come to me in such a magical way, I want to honor it by celebrating it with my family and friends and sangat. So--we're off!
Wish us luck!